Relapse

#personal

#personal

Why (when I have a phobia of sharks) watch films like “2-Headed Shark Attack”?
Watching Sin City on a Saturday night in an empty house. Three years ago people would have been rolling about on eccies with the polis at the door. 14-17

3.37am

Woke up at 3am thinking about it, read something related to the situation which has made me feel physically sick and it’s just made how I feel ten times worse… Actually now that I’ve read what I’ve read it can’t get any worse than this. Dreading waking up and realising it wasn’t a dream. What they wrote… I feel like I know they don’t mean it, but I honestly don’t know anymore. They obviously do though. That’s the final straw and I’m petrified of how I’m going to feel when I wake up. Do not do anything stupid. Fuck I actually can’t breathe it hurts that much

08/10/11

08/10/11